::...when it hurts...::

...just pray. Even when you don't know what to do, pray. It may sound too simple and your pain might still sting, don't stop praying. If God puts you through it, He'll see you through it. Trust in Him...always.

:: Is it the end...? ::

...of the year already?! Oh, if you don't know how to read my post. Just read from the title and continue on here. Ok? Shall I continue?

So many things have happened and the lazy side of me doesn't want to go through the hassle of typing every single detail down. Opps...getting lazy now. I think I may have to stop right here cause I'm getting finger cramps. Hahahaha...stewpid. Done.

::...wtf...::

Argh!!! I wanna vent. Please, can I? Part of me hates de very existence of Facebook. I just hate it when I come across uncomfortable, hurtful, suspicious comments! Right now, I wanna cry. Yes, I do. Argh! Is there any way to remove these feelings inside surgically? Huh?...Please do inform me if there is. LOL. AMY DANGIN! Help. Okay lah. 'Nuff said. -end-

PERfECt tWO -AUBURN

(I seriously LURVE this song. . .sigh)

PERFECT TWO by AUBURN

You can the peanut butter to my jelly
You can be the butterflies I feel in my belly
You can can be the captain
I can be your first mate
You can be the chills that I feel on our first date

You can be the hero
I can be your side kick
You can be the tear
That I cry if we ever split
You can be the rain from the cloud when it's stormin
Or u can be the sun when it shines in the mornin

Don't know if I could ever be
W/out u cause boy u complete me
And in time I know that we'll both see
That we're all we need

Cause you're the apple to my pie
You're th straw to my berry
You're the smoke to my high
And you're the one I wanna marry

Cause you're the one for me (for me )
And I'm the one for you (for u)
U take th both of (of us)
And we're the perfect two

We're the perfect two
We're the perfect two
Baby me and you
We're the perfect two

Verse2

You can be the prince and I can be your princess
You can be the sweet tooth I can be the dentist
You can be the shoes and I can be the laces
You can be the heart that I spill on the pages

You can be the vodka and I can be the chaser
You can be the pencil and I can be the paper

You can be as cold as the winter weather
But I don't care as long as were together

Don't know if I could ever be
W/out u cause boy u complete me
And in time I know that we'll both see
That we're all we need

Cause your the apple to my pie
You're the straw to my berry
You're the smoke to my high
And you're the one I wanna marry

Cause your the one for me (for me)
And I'm the one for you (for u)
U take th both of us (of us)
And we're the perfect two

We're the perfect two
We're the perfect two
Baby me and you
We're the perfect two

Bridge

You know that I'll never doubt ya
And you know that I think about ya
And you know I can't live without ya

I love the way that u smile
And maybe in just a while
I can see me walk down the aisle

Cause your the apple to my pie
You're the straw to my berry
You're the smoke to my high
And you're the one I wanna marry

Cause your the one for me (for me)
And I'm the one for you (for u)
U take th both of us of us (of us)
And were the perfect two

Who Would've Thought

The most unexpected thing happened to me...*gasp! Few years back, I would have never ever thought that it could happen to me. Sure it can happen to someone else but by golly, not me. I told myself that these things are not my thing. At one point, I felt that it goes against everything I believe in. Oh, I had my own opinions on the matter and at one point I was like, "What are these people doing? Don't they know it's not right?". And now, few years down the road, here I am. Exactly where they are. How the hell did this happen? I know only one answer to that. KARMA. It has finally bit me on my arse. Haha. Everything I said got chucked out the window of reality. Is this how God teaches me to be more loving towards man-kind? To love without prejudice. To accept without limits. Well, this sure is a wake-up call. And what makes it even worse (maybe not), I like every bit of the experience it is offering. My heart is awaken. My mind opened. I see now. And I have no regrets. I pray that something good may come out of this...Oh Lord I hope so. =) Now, who would've thought huh. Linda...Linda. LOL!

Updates

Stick and stones may break my bones, but not your words...

A weird introduction to my blog thus far..lol. I was just thinking about how my weeks have been. I am a darker shade of brown and I have found new friends. So far so good, you may think. But life, as usual, is full of bitter...and sweet experiences.

Bitter...why? Let's just say that I had the pleasure of encountering many shapes and forms of..erm...how to put it in a diplomatic way...should I say, "back-stabbing-glory-taking-green-eyed-gremlins"? Hahaha. Well, I am not sorry for my honesty but I am sorry for ever meeting such homo-sapiens. So, my advice to those who are in the same boat as I am...don't let them get to you. You are way better than them and never ever bring yourself down to their level cause then, you'll be no different from them. Strengthen your back bone, don't be spineless. But most of all, keep moving forward and don't spend even 1 second dwelling on what they think of you cause it is not worth it. [Making notes to self...lol]

Sweet...Aaaaah. My happy moments are in the form of a bunch of girls in a Netball Team that I recently had the pleasure of training. Who could ever thought that one can learn so many things from chirpy, sweet, nutsy girls. It's like they never run out of batteries...lol. I found my inner kid in me and enjoyed every second of Netball with them. They taught me to laugh at myself and never take life so seriously but enjoy every second of it! Thanks girls. You rawk my world!

And this part is especially for Amy Dangin...one of my closest friend and fellow mother. I read your blog. I almost cried...actually there were already tears forming in my eyes. Like you, I wasn't given any manual to tell me how to raise my son. For me, the love I have for him was the driving instinct that taught me how to nurture him and raise him. I made mistakes too my friend. Still making them. And sometimes I break down cause I am my worst critic. I tell myself I am doing a bad job. But you see, as much as I want to teach Aidan how to live in this world...he teaches me how to be a mother. Note that I don't say good or bad cause I believe mothers are mothers. And as far as I am concerned...I will continue to make mistakes. That is the only way, at least I believe, that I can teach Aidan how learn to be a human being by allowing him to see that I am not perfect...and I try to love him above all things. You are not alone Amy. XOXO

How to Tame a Free Spirit

So, I came across this on the net when someone said that I'm such a "free-spirited" person...I was wondering, is it a bad thing or good thing? I don't care. But anyone who is willing to love me must want to know how to tame me, huh. LOL. Read on if you must...



Have you met someone who's fiercely independent, or just loves everything that's out of the ordinary, and yearn for their devotion? The key to sharing a wild soul is to make him or her feel like they can be freer with you than with anybody else. Here's how to have that free spirit eating out of your hand, willingly and happily.


STEP 1
Get your priorities straight. What do you want most out of the relationship? Think about what your top three expectations are: Commitment? Respect? Honesty? Affection? Companionship? Passion? Security? Stability? A free spirit is not the kind to twist and turn to meet your every need (although some can at times, once they feel they can completely trust you). You'll have to make it simple for them by coming to an understanding of what you want most out of a relationship and asking for that, and nothing else.

STEP 2

Don't sweat the small stuff. Things like punctuality, precautions, and any other kind of minor limit or inhibition will be of no concern to an independent mind. They like to flow through life, following their whims - and this often makes them extremely creative and fascinating individuals, which is what probably attracted you to them in the first place. By imposing dams, as little as they may be, you could very well suffocate the qualities that make this person desirable to you, if you don't manage to scare them off first.

STEP 3

Choose your battles wisely. Don't nitpick. If they're 15 minutes late and you end up missing a movie, roll with the punches and see the next one. But if they're 45 minutes late to pick you up in the middle of the night in a bad neighborhood, that's serious. In general, if it doesn't directly threaten the priorities you established in Step 1, then let it go and just enjoy the ride.

STEP 4

Avoid setting rules. Restrictions are like chains, and will send this wild horse running towards the horizon. Instead of saying, "Don't ever cheat on me," say "You'd be a complete idiot to risk losing such an awesome person like me just so you could get a little extra on the side."

STEP 5

Get to know the person inside out. Study their tendencies, their quirks, their deepest desires, and their worst fears. Always be accepting and open-minded. Knowledge is power. The better you know this person, the less you'll feel the need to control them. Moreover, he or she will sense this and feel like you're the only person who truly knows them and thus, the only person they can be their uninhibited selves around. To a free spirit, this is the jackpot.

STEP 6

Give them the benefit of the doubt. A person who values his or her independence will truly test your ability to trust. You need to determine early on whether or not you trust this person, and then trust them completely. Sure, you might get burned, but you also might capture the heart of a person that no one else could touch.

STEP 7

Get in touch with your own free spirit. Don't sit at home, wondering what he or she is doing, or when they're going to call. Get in your car and take a road trip. Visit an old friend. Watch a new movie. Taste a different kind of food. Your free spirit will respect you for it, and feel a sense of kinship with you when you both get home and recount your adventures.

STEP 8

Appreciate their free-spiritedness. The number one condition that all free spirits demand of their relationships is acceptance. If you don't accept the free spirit, the free spirited person takes that as an assault on his/her freedom. If you accept them exactly as they are and place no expectations/conditions on them, then they can trust you. And only in trust can a relationship develop. Just remember that independence is something to be appreciated, not just tolerated, you'll be giving a free spirit exactly the kind of nourishment that it needs.

TIPS

• Free spirits don't like the idea of being judged. Once you start judging them, they feel it's a personal attack and will back off and may even vanish so be careful with your words and actions. But once you meet him/her on the same level (learn to accept them) they can become the most extraordinary individual you ever met.

• Don't try to change him or her. This is a classic mistake, in any kind of relationship, but especially when you're dealing with a rugged individual.

• Give them time to themselves and to their projects. Independent individuals tend to have a burning need to progress alone - sometimes you have to let them go down a path by themselves and just let them know you'll be there for them when they get to the end.

WARNINGS

• Just because you're inviting a free spirit into your life doesn't mean you need to do dangerous things like practice unsafe sex, do drugs, ride a motorcycle in inclement weather, etc. Not every free spirit is trustworthy (although some are), and some just simply cannot be tamed.
• You can never trully "tame" a free spirit. What you want to do is have the free spirit close to you. Think of it as changing your location (bringing yourself out into the wild) rather than theirs (bringing them indoors).
• If all else fails, try to enjoy the free spirit from afar. Support their activities, and communicate that you appreciate their decisions. Sometimes it is hard to be a free spirit (not everyone accepts them as they are and sensitivity can often be an issue if you don't stay open to their beliefs), and occasionally some encouragement feels good, even if they are incredibly independent.
• A free spirit usually shows their love for their partner in "unique" ways. Pay attention and be aware of their showing love. An example would be like: normally he/she is doing their hobby on Saturday at 3pm,but this Saturday at 3pm they're sitting in the living room next to you watching T.V. while you do what you normally do. They may not cuddle you or tell you anything, but their presence next you to is one of the ways they show their affection.So, please first think about any "oddity" of theirs as a sign of love and don't accuse them of their lack of showing their devotion to you.

What Do Women Want?

Ok...this has been a "mind boggling" question for men for almost like...forever. LOL. Like Holly said in "P.S. I Love You"....We Have No Idea What We Want?! Seriously. It frustrates us too you know. Not only menfolk. I seriously wished that I know what I want. I mean, I basically have some ideas of what I dream I could have...or get lost in my daydream of what my husband "should" be like...haha! Oh c'mon ladies...you can't sit there and tell me that you don't wish that your hubby could be more like the husband you imagine in your head...Did I make sense there? Crap! LOL. Oh, don't get me wrong. I am happily married...ahem. My hubby is a good man or at least he's trying to be. Nobody's perfect, right. At least he loves my son so dearly. Could a wife ask for me than that. I honestly can say, I am tolerating marriage? Is there such a term? But I may or may not pass that phase...if it is a phase in one's life. If I pass it...then people who love me can stop crossing their fingers and put a halt on their prayers cause I would shift from tolerating to "being content", which is almost close to being happy? I guess. But if I don't, what's the worse that can happen? Will I die? Will those who love me die? If people could die of disappointment, then perhaps they would die...;p

All I know is...I want so much more out of my life. I don't wanna be trapped. Suffocated. Have you ever asked yourself, "there's more to life than this".. I have like asked myself that a gazillion times and yet here I am complaining, not doing anything to remedy my situation. Does our dream die after we get married? Is it placed on the "I'll Get To You Later" shelf to rot? I know I can achieve what I always dream about. I know I can be so much more happier. But the question is, do I have the guts to go after it? So, ladies...wake up. Know what you want before its too late and go after it when you still have the courage to do so. Don't wait. You'll regret it. Seriously. Oh, and I salute women who do know what they want...bravo to you, really. I totally envy you. SALUTE! ;)